I don’t usually put things on tumblr, I haven’t since I was about 15. I’m all honesty I don’t even know if I’ve spelt tumblr right but I’m going with it.

I used to write on here when I had no one else to vent to and I guess that’s why I’m doing this. I’m 21 and I’ve got no one to talk to but a website I don’t even check.

I can’t talk to my boyfriend because he just lies about everything..do you know what it’s like to love someone so much but know that everything they promised you is just pure bullshit?

I’ve ignore my best friends for lies. People I could trust with my flaws, for someone who can’t even be honest about the smallest thing.

I’ve moved him into my home, he’s sleeping in my bed. I give him everything I’ve got and I’m the one left feeling like I need to give more to make him a better person…The person he made out to be, the person I thought he was. The person he told me he was when we first got together.
Someone who could make me better.
We could build a team that would go though anything to make sure we were ok.

But when I think about it, everyone told me what I needed to do. My friend’s were right, I mean for fuck sake, even my mum was right and that’s something I don’t admit easily but she was right.

Sometime you’re just better off alone.

And even though I know what I need to do, I’m still sitting here with him next to me and that’s my problem.

I find it hard to lose people, even if I need to.

When I’m fucked up that’s the real me